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Conscious Discontentment

Posted in Life Lessons with tags , on April 7, 2010 by Angela

For a good portion of my life I’ve resided in a place of contentment, in that middle zone between happy and unhappy where you possess a calm ease of mind.

Overall, I suppose it is more to be regarded as an asset than a detriment that I can be centered in such a place when seemingly surrounded by adverse conditions.

I generally consider myself to be rational minded, pragmatic and realistic (which can seem pessimistic to the untrained thinker who doesn’t look from all angles).

I have always been this way as far back as I can recall in childhood which, as you can well imagine, doesn’t make me the life of the party in some respects.

However, into adulthood and for those who realize they can benefit from getting a straight opinion from this way of thinking it serves well because the outcome does not affect me one way or the other and hence doesn’t cloud opinion.

So, it has not been too terribly uncomfortable for me over the years to look at the good, better & best as well as bad, worse & worst when assessing my place in the grand scheme of things and to navigate so that I’m nearer to the middle with a recognizable chance of either extreme.

Within the last few years, I made the decision to move myself to a place of conscious discontentment in hopes of trying to move to higher state of peace & happiness.

This decision isn’t an attempt to really gain anything tangible; it’s driven more by attaining a deeper mental awareness and challenging my outlook for the better.

It’s requiring me to shift into a perspective of slight dissatisfaction and then look further ahead towards propelling my consciousness into the better zone on the continuum while still maintaining the former contentment or with that much more fulfilling sense of contentment.

I have noticed changes that may not really be evident to most because this is such an intensely internal undertaking. It really feels like the right thing to do at this time in my life and I’m encouraged by the little modifications that I see.

Ultimately, time will tell if the enhanced energy poured in outweighs the semi-passivity….

~Peace & Blessings~